Treatment at Westborough State Hospital

By Jonathan Cates

If you are not positive, you are negative.

Not expressing your feelings honestly is being negative. Expressing honest feelings is negative, especially when you spread your negativity to other peers. It is negative not to be positive, but not positive to try to be positive because you are not expressing your honest feelings.

Expressing your feelings is not positive, but keeping them inside is wrong. Keeping to yourself is going against treatment. Association with other peers is secretive behavior if staff is not closely monitoring your conversations. But, not seeking support from others is against treatment.

Talking about your thoughts is negative if you discuss them with a patient. When you don’t, feedback recommends you expand your support structure.

You must only seek support if it is appropriate. What is appropriate is decided by individual staff. What is inappropriate is decided by one staff even if you are told to discuss it with another. Approaching that staff is staff-splitting, but not approaching is not expanding support structure or expressing feelings.

It is appropriate to seek out support from your contact, except when you are frustrated with another person. If you mention another problem besides your own it is complaining, or not focusing on your own treatment. But, not approaching staff is a safety issue if you keep a secret to yourself.

Arguing with an unfair situation such as this is disagreeing with staff. Disagreement is wrong and punishable. Agreement is not expressing your feelings honestly.

Silliness is not acceptable, yet seriousness is corrected and considered negative. Joking is not permitted since it is always the wrong place, yet you are told to "lighten-up" when you are taking things seriously.

Having a serious expression on your face makes you look sad or depressed and is considered negative.

Smiling is considered "game-playing" and consequences are given.

When one peer is corrected by another it is "junior-staffing" even though you are told to help or correct those in need of it. If you don’t, that looks as if you are selfish and uncaring of others.

Not understanding the above is disagreeing since you are told you should. Saying you do is not expressing your honest feelings.

You are oppositional and defiant for not completely cooperating with these expectations even though you are told you don’t have to be perfect. Not being perfect is imperfection, and imperfection is not the expectation of Unit II.

Writing this is disrespectful to the Team and sarcastic in what they think is disrespectful. Saying I’m expressing my honest feelings of why I get frustrated so easily is mocking their intelligence. If I did not write this, nobody would know what I was just thinking. But since I did, it is negative.